Pressing on

Eighty-two.

So, today I was asked out for the first time.

And I said yes.

Twas a good day.

RELIENT K LYRICS.

cutting class through the first floor window
he's driving fast cause he never did a thing slow
and i look up to my big bro
cause in the 80's all the ladies
grabbed his hand and couldn't let go

and i'm only gonna pierce my left ear
and i've been working on this mustache all summer long
and my favorite band will always be tears for fears
and i'm gonna wear a pink tux to the prom.

Don't give up, it's not the end
There's hope for every fallen man
To pick themselves up when they think they can't
Because with every passing second

comes a second chance.

And sometimes I say things that
I wish that I could take back
The most crucial thing I lack is the thing called "tact"

I said I'm always close-minded
With an open mouth.

And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather
Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you.

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life.

the truth is, excuses are lame
accept consequence
accept the blame

we point the finger even though it's not polite
we condemn the son of God
(we're hoping two wrongs make a right)
maybe it is them
or, maybe it is me
or, maybe it's maybeline.

You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.

It doesn't have to be beautiful.

Eighty-one.

It’s no secret; the way you feel about me. Maybe I’m naive, but I feel like it’s got some possibility. Let me inside, take a leap of faith, and I promise you I’ll do the same. This is it for us, our only year left. Don’t be afraid, just ask.

you've got the sort of laugh that waters me.

Eighty.

Sorry it’s been awhile. Hope y’all are doing alright. I’ve got some lyrics for you. These are just some songs I’ve been able to identify with lately.

I heard you say you would love for a lifetime
Now you complain a lifetime just doesn't feel right for you
Another casualty of casual love
Another soul out of place, a heart that gave up
Why do we break the promises we make?
Are we living for ourselves?
Don't give up on love and throw it all away.
-Sanctus Real, “Don’t Give Up”

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough…
To where will you run?

-Tenth Avenue North, “By Your Side”

With your hands on your hips, you spoke

while I sat down on that floor.
Two dishes in the kitchen sink, the way you treat me when you drink,
You don't look so superior when you give your opinion.
Don't think I don't know how you act on your own.
-Howie Day, “Be There”

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go.

-Kelly Clarkson, “Already Gone”

Baby you've got the sort of laugh that waters me.

-Ingrid Michaelson, “Sort Of”

I’m told that fate makes fun of us,
That it gives us nothing and promises everything,
When happiness seems to be within our reach,
We reach out and find ourselves like fools.
Yet someone told me…
That you still loved me.
-Carla Bruni, “Quelqu’un M’a Dit”

Think of me when you close your eyes
But don't look back when you break all ties
Think of me when you're coming down
But don't look back when leaving town today.
-Doves, “There Goes the Fear”

One of those things you have to do.

Seventy-nine.

Between all the “you’s”

All the anger and the lies

Every single time you made me smile

And of course your girl

That tore me apart

Remember, please

There’s a heart.

It doesn’t hurt as bad when you’re driving fast,

The trees, the memories, all blur together.

Don’t look at me like that,

You know it’s not right.

You’re standing there with her,

You chose that life

And there’s no going back.

“this is the busiest intersection in the city of rats.
this is where i meant to catch the train

but lost its tracks
because i was stuck in my own.
this is how i forgot to say

i loved you like i meant it.”

-*ohsostarryeyed on deviantart.com

Now is your chance to take the pieces of your broken heart and make something new, something whole. To pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and scream at the sky you won’t be knocked so far down you can’t get back up again.

With a reckless desire pulsing through her veins

She tries to match his coldness,

tries to see anything else

But his eyes, so vibrant, telling her goodbye.

“I better check my pride
Because I was starting to think
I was on to something good
But things started to slide
And I sit here in retrospect
And understanding that I misunderstood

Why don't you
Come right out and say it?
Even if the words are probably gonna hurt
I'd rather have the truth
Than something insincere.”

-Relient K

I hope she makes you happier.

Seventy-eight.

He hurt me so bad that night. You were the only one that truly got it, you were there as my witness. And I turned around and you had a funny little half frown and said come on, let’s get out of this town. So we walked away from him and that mess and I forget everything he said. I want you to know it nearly made me cry when you looked into my eyes and said “I just want you to be happy. Please try.”

It was hardest that day

Because I knew you were finally telling me the truth

Sitting on that park bench, all the images come crashing back

I can’t control my mouth, what I’m about to say

get up, and please just walk away.

So many regrets etched on your face.

It’s a makeshift plan I’ve devised to move on,

But I have to improvise, see,

I didn’t really think I’d ever see you walk away

And maybe that’s naive, maybe I was up here,

Swinging aimlessly on my trapeze.

I just didn’t plan on you breaking my heart that day.

You gave me an apology so softly;

Why didn’t you yell it?

Why didn’t you make me hate you?

“In wet cement
You drew a line
Dancing across the coals
You ask me to pick a side
I’ve gotta ruin tonight
Cause there’s no good way to say I’m leaving you.”

-Slow Club

Around here,

Everywhere I turn is like a way back

To memory lane; I’m stuck in this maze

And the only key out comes by a name of time.